im scared..
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
TODAE will be the day i declare WAR!!!!
haha..not really actuali.
meeting h*z*a*n later.
after maghrib..
we're gona talk things out and well..
maybe i might just gain the 'SINGLEHOOD' award again..
i don't know...
im such a contradicting queen..
i wan a break but i don't want him to leave me..
how??
no,i don't want a break break..
as in i need a break,i need time for myself to reflect how things are..
you wana noe something?
he told me he has started loving me..
im scared...
funny how it works the other way round for me..
my love for him kinda fades away while his loving me more each day..
haizzzz...
todae wil be the day i voice out my opinion..
i hope i haf the courage..
omg..i don't want to break his tiny heart..
okay let me plan something..
~for my own reference:)
-about tatitu..
-current situation..
-the pros n cons..
-wat can be done..
-main aim..
-the truth..
-being open wif everything..
-beg for forgiveness..
okay done..
now im analysing evry topic there..
GOD save me please..
Labels: im goin dead
11:33 AM
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another dream ....
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
a few days back,i had a dream again..
and h*z*a* was there..
left me puzzled after i woke up..
it's as though that dream is telling me something..
but what??
it's like this..
h*z*a* told me to meet him at ECP..
so i went there..
and while walking on the pavement,i spotted him from a far..
being elated i was,i waved at him and smiled..
and he waved back at me..
i was tempted to run into his arms but i didn't..
instead i walk at a faster pace..
halfway walking...
i saw r*z*a* with his family and friends having picnic..
so i stopped and walked towards him instead..
i was shocked and excited to see him there..
and that phony smile of his,moved me to sit and chat with him..
such an old friend you see..
after some laughs with r*z*a*,decided to head back to h*z*a*..
as i got on my track,i could no longer see him at the other end..
h*z*a* was nowhere in sight.
i looked around and around and he wasn't there anymore..
and pooff..
i woke up...
you wanna know something..
don't tell anyone kay..shushhh..
i.do.have.a.crush.on.r*z*a*..
i hate man wif ego but he's the only one i can bear with..
coz i love his reactions when i poke his ego bubble..
and he has that charm of matsumoto jun and samuel rizal..
which i like and is rare to find..haiz...
im such a bitch..Labels: im goin dead
11:08 AM
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