can this just stop..
Saturday, August 30, 2008
goodness..im cryin rite now..
it hurts so much..
why are you doin this to me?
please..can you just stop hurtin me indirectly..
i just dont get it..
im attached to you but seems like you're attached to her..
how come she noes u gettin ur hair cut botak?
and i came to noe bout it after i invade her frenster..
how come she noes u CUT ur hair botak already.
and i just came to noe bout it now..
why??
i wana cry h*z*a*..
and i hate the debate we had just now..
seems as though you're such a jerk..
guy havin 2 GF?? you find tat okay??
tats fine coz the guy likes both and cant decide??
are you tat kind..tats why you defendin ur statement?
im not like tat..im not!!
btw,i feel bad wen i cant accompany you to the hospital..
my heart lurched wen you said you were free but cant meet me..
and lastly,i cant believe the fact tat u wanted me
to go all the way to sengkang to see you coz u were sick..
i wanted to actuali coz i wasn even there for you wen you were sick..
so i tout i cud prove to you tat i cared..
it's not about the distance but sacrifises..
but the whole time i was wif you,it haf always been me..
i wont mind givin in..
i wont mind apologisng even if i wasn in the wrong..
i wont mind sacrifising..
but it's always me..wen wil it be your turn?
im just sick of this h*z*a*..
shud i ask for a break?
or give him chance and hear him say himself tat he loves her and not me?
it wil hurt but im ready to get over it..
and i noe i CAN get over it..
pls God,guide my way..
Labels: im goin dead
3:28 AM
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im hurt
Friday, August 29, 2008
h*z*a*..
i dont noe if i love you..
but wen i saw ur ex and crush chasing after you..
i was afraid of losing you..
you were so different..
i like how we met on the internet..
i like how we interacted..
it was totally the opposites but i enjoyed every debate we had..
uber unique and convectional..
then i like talkin to you..
remember how awkward it was wen we had the first call?
anyway,i love our first date..
wasn to my expectation but it was sweet and rather romantic..
and you taught me to appreciate simple things..
then you propose to me and seriously i was kinda the happiest women tat time..
coz like i said,i was afraid of losing you..
i so loved you h*z*a*..
and i got really jealous and upset wen i came to noe tat ur ex stil loves you..
do you noe tat i check her frenster all the time..?
and she keeps displayin you on her profile sayin how you two were perfect for each other..
it hurts me so bad and i felt like cryin..
and i asked myself..wen i officially became ur gf,haf you ever start lovin me..?
one day,i asked you whethe u stil love your ex..
ur answer hurt me again..and i just felt like giving up..
coz im just noone in your life..
and i cant substitute ur first love,can i?
why do u even asked me to be urs?
why do you haf to hurt me?
when you held my hands and hug me,was it me you're huggin or her?
when you sleep,do you dream of me?
when you close your eyes,do i always appear infront of you?
do you always think of me?
and you kinda forget our monthsary..
you noe it was my first yet you din seem to take notice..
i envy all those girls out ther..
seeing their bf make an effort celebratin their aniversary..
i don feel special at all..
i feel like a piece of unwanted trash..
but i haven gave up yet..
i noe i had 50% of you..so i just need to work hard on the other half..
but you changed along the way..
you're not like the h*z*a* i knew 9 mths ago..
and i tink my love for you kinda fade away..
coz im no competition to ur ex..
she's a hundred step way ahead of me..
but you're not at fault..i am..
firstly im not a gf material..im sory..
this bgr is so new to me..there's just so much restriction..
i dont haf my freedom yet i just cant seem to understand you..
but i tried..gues it didnt work:(
im lost h*z*a*..
do you tink it be better if we're just frens??
Labels: free me..
9:57 AM
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my first post
okay..my blog is officially open:)
people who knows my blog,feel honoured..
people who doesn know it exist,feel free to read..
sory for some emo post..
i cant vent it on anyone so this blog solves it all..
and i dont wanna trouble my frens with my problem so ...
Labels: free me..
9:48 AM
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